sudah lama ga nulis di blog ini simply karena lagi males nulis online.
pernah pengen hiding myself, kayaknya tulisan2 gw ini terlalu jujur membuka kulit2 isi pikiran gw.
padahal maksud blog ini bukan untuk curhat tapi untuk menjadi catatan refleksi diri gw sendiri atas apa yg terjadi di sekeliling gw, jadi suatu waktu nanti gw akan bisa balik dan diingatkan atas milestones hidup gw.
tapi hr ini, ada dorongan untuk nulis beberapa peristiwa terlewatkan blog ini.
2008
-- inagurasi penuh memori - banyak hal yg gw pelajari dari pengelaman ini, arti kesetiaan, arti hipokrit, dan arti "the first cut is the deepest", tapi yg gw seneng banget, melalui proses ini terutama buat gw arti mencintai diri gw lebih dari sebelumnya. gw take charge my life back dan happy with its state now. Thank God for such experience.
-- konser KogTituVih - hahaha, ini juga byk pengalaman...
ada yg bilang, "jangan sampai kompetisi gak penting berujung kehilangan teman", tapi versi gw justru:
"kompetisi ini ga penting & ga worth banget, jadi saat yg katanya teman berubah jadi orang lain yg tidak dikenal & perbuatannya jadi aneh2, justru di situlah kita tau siapa yg teman sejati". Friendship is beyond priceless compared to laptop, remember that. It costs us friendship when you turned me that down for such cheap competition.
-- reality hurts when seeing someone I trust can do two opposite things in just second.
if you told me that you would do a bad thing about one person but then I found you with that person so close, you really scared me to hell...
better, don't tell me your plan... or is it you? how bout if you do it to me to? that you only good when you want something from me...
hmmm, reality check and reality hurts sometime but life goes on, no regrets
Gw back to state that I love before.
... when I dicipline to enjoy myself while be blessings to others whose in need
... when I know price of sincere smiles
... when I chose to sort my mind - sometimes being open minded also means that I allow people to enter easily their doctrine
... when I dedicate more time to quote GOD's words, sing Franky song, play with my hobby and spend much time with my best friends.
Thanks God for whatever happenned, I know You're there and want me to see it.
2009 I heard You told me to be a "butterfly" - very thin wing but can fly through the wind and be an "eagle"
songon lali i, habang mansai timbo
maninggalhon sude angka sidangolanki
holan Ho Tuhan, pasabam rohangki
Ndada na so tarbaen Ho Tuhan
