"In life, one has to have a dream, do what necessary to pursue the dream... If along the way you know you won't be able to reach the dream, then change it. Do not let the circumstances beat you, that's all winner do." - CNN.
Above quotation Ive just heard in an emission talking about summer Olympics in London that near to end. Believe it or not, next summer Olympics will be in Rio de Janeiro! I'm expecting to see a colorful closing ceremony where will be a special concert and sure Brazil will use its moment to do "pre-carnaval"... worth watching!
This morning I went to my first Sunday sermon at Yokohama Baptist International Church. Visiting Pastor is a Japanese, and the translator is a doctor who has very weak voice so I had struggle to concentrate listening his English. Having that experience remind me of the same kind in Indonesia and how lucky expatriates to have many translators Indonesians performing better job.
He conveyed the Message of the calling and how God way is not man's way, it is out of imaginable. His order is simple, for us to believe His words. There are events that we only see the outcome (only harvesting) but God has out the seed indeed before us. Nevertheless, in most cases (if not all) we don't even see any symptoms. For whom with pure heart just obey what he needs to do according to His "order", it pays out of imagination joy.
I had to make testimony of that!
Back in 1986, my parents (and QQ) were in Osaka for World Expo, and I remembered Dad told me that both had prayed that one of their daughter, pointed to me who at that time had to do my final exam and forget my dream to follow visit them to Japan. And here I am in 2012, "already" an engineer and is working in a "world-class" project in Japan, truly out of imagination!
Rewinding back how I came into this project, also out of imagination. Ive been told in June and started in DSLNG by the next month. It was not a project that I chose neither what I dreamt of, but it was a dream of my parents. What else should I dream but giving it out to them. So as last year when I first time came to Japan, suddenly some puzzles in my life start to be explainable and question remains, "How could the world been in a mega coalition to make my kind of "story" a reality?!
There were (many) times I kept begging to God that I want to have my own life but too many being asked from me. Since I was kid God has put me in some challenges and that I felt too much for my age. But (started that one night starring at "Yokohama wheel") I know that I put my bet in the right hands and asked Him no more. After all, the rewards He gives much more that I ever imagine. Though tears remain, a doze of frustration and confusion also experienced, but the assurance of peace in mind and unspeakable joy that I have been enjoying for last two years are live, despite how hard my days to some viewer. Truly out of imagination.
I understand my responsibility now is not easy (is never been easy life, huh?!), but quoted the powerful prayer that once God had answered Salomon provide me assurance to believe no need to change my dream neither to surrender or to be beaten by the circumstances. God has showed me "Providentia", so why not keeping up in the challenge track; wounds, tears and scars are nothing by keeping my focus n Him who's waiting at the finish line. All I always want, is getting a gold medal.
After the sermon, I met three Indonesians! in such a small church in Yokohama. One lady works in the same project with me (on Japan side) and met her once only last week without conversation she just asked my signature for MOM. Never thought meeting her in church). We had fruitful conversation, and I'd love meeting them again next sermons that I promise will visiting the church at my Sunday times in Yokohama. I went together with her to Yokohama station for lunch and after we broke up I continued past time by shopping o-miyage (oleh2). I felt so rich doing shopping in Japan! Though my money was not always "my money" in the past but here it is Your promise indeed true again, that Your money is unlimited for me to use but with one condition that is at Your times and not mine hehe... Love You, and help me to love You more.
"Prayer of Salomon: "I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties. SO give your servant a discerning heart... For who is able to govern this family and the great people of yours?"
12.8.2012 @Royal Park Hotel Yokohama - awaiting the closing London Olympics ceremony.