After had been listening to unexpected news last night, I pull out some of playlist in my
iQuote's Library (the "i" has nothing to do with Apple Inc), look for a magic dose of vitamin that usually strengthen my trained muscles to face life. I pray to beg God to give me peace and serenity to face this foresee problem by believing that "There is nothing that He and I can't solve together." My preferred quotes together with The Bible verses have been allowed me to enjoy my endurance capacity to overcome problems that God allows me to experience in life.
In My Recently Added, added an opinion of a foreigner on Indonesian's Leaders as quoted by Kol. Pitut Soeharto, an ex-intelligent of special-force in recent television’s interview regarding president election (2009):
“... Rakyatnya aja dikibuli, apalagi orang lain." Oh well, though it hurts deeply inside for me as being betrayed, but I will end up a fool as to deny that. I witness its correctness, so I couldn't agree more.
Top Most Played quote that I recalled during our conversation:
"Everything happens for a reason." Though you’re part of my decision, but definitely not the only one. And I’ve been through failures cause of wrong decisions I made in life. As Fergie sings it nicely,
“This is time to be a big girl now and big girls don't cry.” Though I may hate you a bit, but definitely you’re not alone, and it won’t long. You guys bring me this far at when everyone else sees me wrongly cause of his or her limited eyes. Though reality hurts when I kept asking “why now?” but I won’t keep you stay only to be someone else. That now I’ve decided not to move backward for my own dignity. I know that it's personal, myself and I, but I've got to get a move on with my life. I have to believe that it must happen for a reason. I’ve been thinking quite long when the thought strikes me that so do my name happen for a reason!
Myself named after a sacred lotus in Sanskrit language i.e.
"Padma”, that cited in Hindu literature as the symbol of the ability to raise above, for although it has its roots in the mud of ponds and lakes, it raises its flower in immaculate beauty above the surface of the water. It has been well defined by Buddha’s in his devoted quotes,
"Lotus flower does not grow in the highlands but in the muck of the swamp. Water surrounds the lotus flower, but does not wet its petals." The pond represents the world with all its characteristics. Lotus flower demonstrates how to show our best to the world and bring light out of darkness. It is also a good symbol of purity and of persistence against difficulty because it has its feet in the mud but has pure white petals raised about the surface of the water.
Like a lotus flower, my parents hoped that I would live in the way it demonstrates, that is the art of living the life without getting touched by the dirty world. My two other names also happen to be a perfect match and complement the idea. In Batak language, Ully means
good/beauty and Artha means
possessions. My destiny has been written in my full name, is to live as a Padma, a sacred lotus - the symbol of the ability to raise - for I am "Ully Artha" - a good/beauty possession - to my parents and family and to the world where I belong.
I believe my parents happened giving my name for a reason. They had a vision that I will be "a lotus flower." Mom was a biology teacher and she perfectly understood this concept. Chinese poets also often use lotus flowers to inspire people to continue striving through difficulties and to show their best part to the outside world, no matter how bad the circumstances may be. Since most ponds in Indonesia are muddy and also the water is dirty to from bottom to surface, so I deliberately translate Buddha’s quote into my context,
"Dirty water surrounds me, but does not wet my inner beliefs".As I’m riding a cart in the middle of life’s roller coaster, lotus conveys the message of detachment. Just like it can't grow further above water, so I can't escape from the world I live in. For although I have my feet in the mud of world - the source of dirty water - but I have the ability to raise in immaculate beauty above the surface of the world I live in.
In addition, come Le Petit Prince quote from My Top Rate
d, "On n'e voit bien q'avec le coeur et l'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.” We can only see well with the heart, the essentials are invisible to the eyes. I have to keep my heart, my petals, in the state of correctness and out of the troubled water, only by doing so that I would have the ability to see clearly the essentials that can’t be seen by the eyes. No regrets because I realize very much that I’m different from them. As My Top Most Played, "
A great deal of pressure and time are needed to transform carbon to become a 'exclusive and highly valued' diamond. So as without them, it would just an 'abundantly presence and cheap' material." It's my mission in life: be present in rare but highly valued - just like a diamond :))
Thanks God for lessons of life that You allowed me to have in my young age. I trusted that Your will, not mine, must happen. So be it, I accept Your bet and I thank You,
for the tear drops... it shows that I am normal,
for the laughs... it shows that I have voice,
for the pain... it shows that I have a feeling,
for the promise... it shows the destiny of my journey,
and am ready to follow my destiny with You hold my hand, and never let it go. I trust You cause I know You so well. Even sometimes I feel that I know You more than myself. It’s easy cause You’re perfect, and I'm working on my imperfectness to become a better me.
At the end my reflections of today, I whisper my all-time Spider man's mantra
“with great power comes great responsibility.” At last, as we always cheer in matches, “Go-go-go, fight-fight-fight, win-win-win”, I would say that I have ‘No Regrets’ that everything happens for a reason to God’s will. My part is just to live like a butterfly that is to live my life according to my destiny, with the spirit of
‘Serviam: I Serve’. Fear not and forget not that I’m also fully granted for
‘Carpe Diem: to enjoy life at the fullest', as it always meant to be by Him to seize my day.
“After you, God.”
